Devil Bunny

Moved Across the Country ...

2004-10-15T00:58:48Z

Yep, you read that right - In case you haven't heard ... Me and the girlie moved across the country to Philadelphia... Lots of reasons for the move - the most important being I was very unhappy with my job in California and I got a great job offer in Philly - so I jumped at the chance.

I am surely going to miss all my friends and family... But hey - now they have an excuse to take a vacation, and they'll have a place to stay free of charge as well.

I've visited a few of the clubs in Philly already (Sin City on Mondays, Revolution and John's Dark Corner on Saturdays) Gonna check out Nocturne soon. We haven't made many friends out here yet so it is a bit lonely, but hopefully that will change soon (Any Philly people out there reading this? Drop me a line - we'd love to meet cool people to hang out with!)

I've also had a few of the world famouse Philly Cheesesteaks out here ... Yum ... I will have more of them!

Our place is nice - bigger then what we had in CA - and the animals seem to have adjusted to it well... but hopefully we'll only be here for about a year - I hope to buy a house on the "main line" when our lease is up...

anyways - Wish us luck in our new home!

Post-Surgical Reactions

2003-08-11T20:28:04Z

I never want to have surgery again...

If anyone ever tells you it's an easy surgery, be afraid - be very afraid. Following is a very detailed description of my last week at the hospital - so don't read it if you're squeamish or don't want to hear it all - I'll just say Surgery sucks. I hate it. I had complications in mine that kept me in the E.R. and hospital 2 more days then I was supposed to - I was in a LOT of pain - but I'm recovering well and feel much better now.

---- now for those who are curious ---

I had laproscopic surgery about a week ago for an inguinal hernia, which really wasn't bothering me all that much - the only problem I had was if I stood up a decent amount of time, usually around 45 minutes or more, I would be in a small amount of pain. It was supposed to be an outpatient type of thing - I go in - get put under - get worked on for about an hour - recover for about an hour - go home for 2 weeks of recuperation.

Well they found out I had a hernia on the other side while they had the scopes in so they fixed that side as well - good that I got both done at one time - so I'm happy about that. I was in the recovery area for a while feeling some pain - but being drugged up it didn't matter all that much. They were just about to send me home and the nurse asked me if I wanted to use the restroom before I left - and I thought I'd try. So they wheel me to the restroom and have me stand up and walk into the restroom to do my thing. I couldn't go, but it sure hurt standing up.

When I came back out the nurses all said I looked pale and should probably hang out a while longer. I didn't really want to but finally agreed to it. After sitting back down for another half hour or something like that, the pain was starting to subside so I mentioned that I was feeling better, so they sent me on my merry way.

The ride home was uneventful not much pain or anything. But once home I hadto stand up walk from the car and up a flight of stairs to get into the condo. Once their I immediately felt quite a bit of pain and that I had to use the retroom badly. I tried for a while but couldn't finally got up and walked to the edge of my bed and just sat their. I was on pain killers (vicodin) but all I could do was sit there and stare at the wall for 2 hours trying to shut the pain out of my mind. I've never had surgery before - so I didn't know what to expect - But I expected some amount of pain was normal...

Penny called the advice nurses after a while and they said even though it wasn't the right time I could have another Vicodin to take a little bit of the pain away again. So I did - but it sure didn't help much. I tried lying down but that wasn't comfortable either. Eventually after I don't know how long I ended up on the couch sitting with a bunch of pillows propped behind my back and it was time for 2 more vicodin. After the vicodin set in - I was finally comfortable. The position I was in with the pillows seemed to be working and the pain was finally tolerable.

It was then around 8 P.M. and the vicodin just wore off - 1 second I was fine - the next I was in excruciating pain again. I felt very bloated - I felt like I had to urinate BADLY, and it wasn't quite time for more medication. Penny helped me up and to the bathroom where I sat but still couldn't go. She called the emergency room because she was told that if I wasn't able to go within 8 to 12 hours I would have to go in. They basically said why are you calling? We don't take appointments, blah blah blah. She told me if I wasn't able to go for a few more hours we'd just have to go in. I didn't want to go back - cuz I knew if I couldn't go in on my own - there'd be a whole lot of no fun going on.

I sat on the pot with water running water going in the sink just hoping that I could make myself go - but no luck - 11 p.m. rolled around and it was time to call it quits - and back to the emergency room we went.

They took my information and got me back right away - a nurse immediately saw me and right away put a urinary cathetar in me - believe me - this is an unpleasant experience. But right away I felt my bladder draining - I apparently had about 2000cc's of very bloody (crimson they called it) urine stuck inside of me. Sometime during this episode my vitals dropped drastically and they had to get an IV in me and eventually got me back to normal again.

The doctor in the E.R. eventually had a chance to see me - and basically said that he had paged one of the surgeons who worked on me that morning who was on call and that she'd be in anywhere from 2 to 2.5 hours from then. I got more pain medication and was feeling comfortable and sleepy finally. So I rested. Finally the surgeon came in at around 4 am, she talked to me a bit - she contacted a Urology specialist and they formulated a plan for the next day. they would shoot some dye up my cathetar into my bladder and x-ray me to se if they had torn or scratched the bladder during the surgery. She asked if I wanted to be admitted to the hospital since It was already 4 am anyway - or If Id rather go home - I asked my sweetie what she thought and we eventually decided I'd stay in the hospital where I could be monitored more carefully. Penny went home so she could get some sleep, and I stayed in the emergency room unable to sleep because there was always stuff going on in the rooms next to me and the rooms were divided by curtains. Finally a room opened up for me in the hospital at around 6:30 a.m. I was moved there. At last I could get some sleep.

My sweetie came back to the hospital for me at around 9:30 the next morning. She had been in contact with my parents on and off the night before giving them updates - as they were in L.A. and they were scheduled to be home somtime the night after my surgery. They said they were leaving as early as possible that morning but they were at the mercy of another couple who'd driven them up for their convention. So we spent the day waiting for the dye/x-ray thing, waiting for my parents, and taking morphine to get rid of the pain. I wasn't eating anything as I was still on the IV. And I was starting to feel bloated again, like I had to urinate - I mentioned it to the nurse so she looked at my catheter and saw that it was draining still but very slowly. She tried maneuvering it around trying to get it to drain faster but it wasn't working. She said maybe there was a blood clot blocking it. She got a syringe filled with water and shot a bit up the catheter into my bladder I felt even more bloated right away - but she said there must have been some blood clotting because some blood came out, but everything was still draining slowly. She then said that something must be wrong with the catheter, and she was going to replace it. Ugh - she pulled it out .... Pain.... Put another one in - more Pain ... 2 catheters in 2 days = a whole lot of no fun. It was draining better she said - but it still seemed slow to me.

At around 4 that afternoon I still hadn't received the X-ray thing and the nurse said it might not be until tomorrow now because the they were still waiting for the dye. Penny said she'd go pick it up herself to get the damned thing overwith but they wouldn't hear it. In the end I had the X-ray that day. The head surgeon who worked on me was in the X-ray lab with us and they found nothing wrong with my bladder so I was told they would take the catheter out the next morning and If I could urinate on my own I'd be able to go home. They took my IV out and I could eat and drink on my own now - but I wasn't feeling the urge to eat, so I just drank juice and chewed on ice. My parents finally got in at around 6:30ish and they spent some time with me raised my spirits some. Everyone cleared out at around 8:30 and I would have had a nice sleep had it not been for a poor old lady in the room next who was recovering from a broken hip/hip surgery. She wasn't all there - and was screaming all night.

The next day they took the catheter out ... and I finally urinated at around 2 that afternoon - so I was finally on my way home. I got my appetite back at home and was recovering well - I could move around on my own - the pain was very tolerable, and things were going well. Then Friday afternoon I felt my shin on my left leg and it felt like there were bubbles or crinkly paper underneath the skin. Very strange - so we called an advice nurse she contacted a surgeon - and long story short - I ended up back in the emergency room at 11 P.M. on Friday. I was there til about 4 am when they told me itwas proablbly just gas from the surgery that had leaked down into my leg instead of being dissipated right away - they said if it got worse - or if I started feeling pain I'd have to go back to the E.R.

In the end - I'm relieved that I didn't hav to have a second surgery on my bladder - the strange feeling stuff in my leg is all but gone. I wish the nurses had kept me in the hospital until I urinated on my own or had me cathereized on site - because I now KNOW I was in a LOT more pain then I was supposed to be in... But hopefully that's all in the past. I have a little bit more then a week left to recover now. And I'm gonna enjoy the time off to rest and recuperate. Hopefully no more trips to the E.R. and no more uneccessary pain.

P.S.: I wanna thank my sweetie for putting up with my horrible moods during this ordeal. It's been rough but the worst is over I hope! I Love you.

My irregularly scheduled live journal entry...

2003-05-30T09:58:04Z

Sleep would be nice - but it's just out of reach....

I hate these nights of Insomnia ... It doesn't happen all that much anymore - but still is goddamn annoying.

My work situation has improved - quite a while back actually - I've been working at a place called Blazer Exhibits & Graphics as their Sr. Graphic Designer... Whee - I run the department and haven't had any major mishaps so far - in fact I've already gotten a raise since starting there...

Only problem is - on the production side of things I'm working on a LightJet (which is a Light based printer (prints using RGB lasers onto photo paper)) and I've no experience with them and they are very much not mac friendly which is bad - since we're a mac based shop ... and I'd like to mention how much I hate OS/X in the environment I'm working in.

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In other news - I went and saw Current 93 in S.F. somewhat recently - I wasn't thrilled by the performance aspect of the show - pretty dull but I'm glad I went for a couple of reasons - first being that - well - it's Current 93 and it's not like they play here very often... Secondly - I got to meet Stephen Stapleton of Nurse With Wound -- quite an honor I thought seeing as he's one of my favorite artists - I showed him my tattoo of the flower girl his daughter had drawn and he used on a couple of album covers ... He told me he was quite pleased with it - I wonder if he's seen many other Nurse With Wound related tattoos -- I asked him if there was any chance he'd ever perform in the states - he replied that he'd leave the performing to the boys - Coil and Current 93 - and he had no interest in performing ... Sad - I had always hoped to see him perform some day - but I guess I can understand - I'm sure there's not a lot that could be done with a Nurse With Wound performance - besides throw up some odd visuals - etc. ah well...

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I love my girlie - even though she drives me crazy sometimes - other times she's all that keeps me sane ... We got a puppy recently - he's a little Italian Greyhound named Ghost (That's the name he had already when we got him.) - fitting that as he was almost a Ghost a couple of times already. He had Parvo as a baby, add to that the fact that he had a broken leg when we adopted from a rescue group, but the group paid for his surgery and he's been on the mend and doing VERY well - he's been running around like nothing was ever wrong with him.

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Anyway - I think I'm going to go attemp to get some sleep again ... hopefully I won't just be lying in bed staring at the back of my eyelids all night unable to actually sleep. Wish me luck.

Lookie Lookie

2003-01-05T18:55:32Z

I'm back again - with a whole lot of nothin to talk about - the job situation is grim - I'm still working a couple of hours a day usually but still ... Blah ...

I took a couple of quizes this morning while doin my job searchin' online - whee fun ...

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Well back to the job hunting.

Security? What's That?

2002-12-31T19:37:22Z

Maybe I should make a simple new years resolution - To take some time and update my Live Journal and Web Site once in a while.

Well - I'm gonna update the Live Journal today at least - we'll take it one step at a time ...

Life has not been kind in some ways lately - in others I couldn't be happier.

I feel blessed in that I have a loving family and girlfriend. And the friends I have are wonderful - though I don't see them nearly as much as I'd like ...

But as far as my job situation goes - well - I thought I was one of the fortunate ones with job security and all that - but it looks like the company I've been working for is on it's way to shutting it's doors. Nothing is set in stone yet - I'm told well find out more January 7th - but I'm nearly positive I'm out of a job. As it is we've all been put "On Call" instead of working our regular hours for the past two weeks - and I've worked less then 40 hours in this time ... I'd rather be laid off altogether - then I could at least collect unemployment ... In the meantime - I'm looking for work ... cross your fingers for me - it's tough out there now!

Me and the girlie don't have any plans for NYE tonight - wonder if we'll find anything interesting to do - or if we'll just stay in ... I wouldn't mind getting out somewhere - but don't want to head to the city or anything like that ... Too crazy tonight ... I can't believe we've been together almost a year now ... It's a record for me ...

My friend Tracy is in town - visiting from New York - we may be goin' bowlin Thursday night YAY ... It will be good to see her.

Well that's all that's coming to mind now .. Blah

I'm Not Dead - But I should be asleep...

2002-07-07T11:16:21Z

It's been a long long time - I've got insomnia bad tonight - I decided to write in this thing since it has been months.

Life is strange - A while back I would have said my personal life sucked - but I was at least happy with my situation at work and all that - My how things change.

I've been very happy and in love with my girlie - Add to that the fact that I'm finally doing music again (Though I really should be working on it more often (sorry Benja - I'll get things working faster soon!) I also need to do some work on the "Studio" Gotta buy a TDIF to ADAT Converter so I can get my DA-38 working with the Korg Oasys - then I gotta get new software installed on the computer and I'll be golden! Sequencing on the K2500 alone is a bitch and I dun wanna do it anymore!

But on the other side of the coin - ever since we got a new Heidelbergh Digital Press at work - things have been going downhill - The new pressman has made a few mistakes on jobs - and the boss yells at me and him for them... He already threatened to fire us if things don't "Shape-up" -- I'm looking for a new job - I don't take kindly to being threatened for someone elses mistakes.

Went to "Counterstrike" tonight with my girlie and her friend Jean (I hope that's spelled right) ... Ran into a bunch of peoples - including Lorin who let me in on the news that Diana is Moving out to Portland with her new boi ... sadness - I haven't talked to her in a while - She didn't show up at a Barbeque I had about a month or month and a half back - and I haven't heard from her since... ahh well what can ya do ...

Argh - I'm supposed to be going to he local farmers market tomorrow morning at 8ish - hope I'll be awake enough for it ... I'm also planning to FINALLY see Star Wars: Episode 2 tomorrow ... My expectatoins aren't too high for it - so we'll see how it goes.

Going to Reno Next weekend - Penny's dancing in a Belly Dancing Competition - hopefully she'll do well - she's been spending a lot of time working with her troupe on their dance - as well as on her solo performance - hopefully it'll pay off! Then wer'e going to Vegas in August for my birthday - looking forward to that!

Anyway - I guess that's about all I want to say right now ... G'night everyone - hope you're sleeping better then I am!6

Okay - I suck ...

2002-02-19T07:10:57Z

It's been a long time again ...

I've been busy - and I don't know if I really have interest to keep up with a live journal ... I may just continue it - and just add stuff infrequently ... as the mood strikes me ...

Things are going well between me and my girlie ... But we've been sick for the past 2 deviations - we hope to make it to this wednesdays .... We stayed in on Valentines day - did pretty much nothing because we decided we'd celebrate it on Friday instead ...Took the day off work went to the city - had Ethiopean food and Garlic INfused Stinking Rose Fare ... was good stuff!

Well - uhm... I'm done ... I want to sleep - but I can't insomnia sucks!

I suck ...

2002-02-01T05:08:40Z

It's been a while - I've been spending most of my time witrh my new girlie :) Whee ... Deliriously happy ...

I haven't been doing a whole lot cept shoppin and goin' out for food lately ... went to Deviation last night - was a good time!

Went to the doctor today - gotta get rid of this damned recurring cough that I've had for over 2 months now ....

I am tired ... And I will sleep well tonight I think ....

It's past 2 am ... Sleep is nowhere to be found ... I guess I'll catch up on my journal ...

2002-01-15T10:45:11Z

It's been a while - and much has changed ... A lot of things are hapening in my life right now ...

First off ... Ive started seeing someone fairly regularly now ... She's a very sweet girl and I enjoy spending time with her ... for almost 2 weeks now - I've seen her nearly every day for a li'l while at least ...I get warm fuzzy happy feelings when I think of her ... We share many interests - similar tastes in music, some film... She likes Iron Chef >grin< - and lots of the same T.V. shows... My cats are still not quite used to her though ... Tabby especially - she's still quite a bit skittish around her ... Her cat on the other hand loves me ... Trinket's always crawlin into my lap - or lyin on my chest when I visit her ... We also like a lot of the same food - I finally found someone I can take to an Ethiopean restaurant!

My New Years Resolutions haven't bourne fruit yet ... I still haven't been working on music - and I still haven't been going out to clubs as much as I'd like to ... Bah humbug ... It will change I tell you, It Will Change!

I may be switching careers - an old friend and ex band mate told me of a position opening up at his company - as a Tech Writer - Sure - I don't have much experience in Tech Writing ... But I damn well can put a manual together! And I rather think I have a fair grasp of the english language - and writing skills in general ... So - I don't think it'd be too much of a stretch ... Best of all - it's in Fremont - it would be like a 5 minute commute! Now its only a matter of if they hire me (which it seems is a good chance ...) and what kind of compensation they're gonna offer me - I couldn't see myself taking the position for less then what I'm making now - in fact I think I'd be looking for a bit more at the least ... But we'll see what happens - I'm crossing my fingers...

If I take the job - my boss is going to shit ... I basically run the place I'm at now - Maintain all the computers, email server, web server, ftp site, and the network - Do all of the pre-press work - check all the film for accuracy ... Hell I even answer the phones and deal with customers when he leaves the office ... The only think I don't do is order materials, quote/invoice jobs, pay the bills, and matchprint or blue line proofs ... Oh and I'm also not the janitor >grin< ...

I got a speeding ticket the day before yesterday ... Grr - And I already have traffic school coming up later this month - so I can't write it off with another traffic school visit ... Le sigh ... With the two accidents I've had - and now this ticket - I'm anticipating a horrible shock when I get my next insurance renewal form ...

I guess that's about it for now ... I want to go to sleep - but I'm still not feeling tired... I hate insomnia ... I'm sure I'm gonna be hating it even more this morning at 6:30 ... I'll probably fall asleep again at work ... I did that yesterday for about 45 minutes as well... That's what happens when there's no work to do and I spend hours playing my game boy or reading a book ... Le sigh ...

Off to bed - to stare into the darkness and hopefully drift away for a few hours ....

My exciting Weekend!... And Oh Mai God - I just realized - I'm not Industrial! quizes!

2002-01-07T07:24:43Z

I had a great weekend ... Spent a good deal of it with a new friend I met not too long ago ... Ate good food (Indian and Thai ... mmmmm) watched good movies , and basically enjoyed each others company ...

I picked up a couple of new CDs today - a Wolfsheim 3 CD set, and an Assemblage 23 album - good stuff so far!

I did have to go in to work today to take care of a crappy rush job that needs to be done "first thing Monday Morning" -- so that was kind of a drag ... Ahh but such is life ...

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2002-01-02T00:10:15Z

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It's been a while ...

2002-01-01T23:14:06Z

I've been slow about updating my journal lately - so I'll try and catch up now ... Though - not much has changed since Christmas ... Except for a few New Years Resolutions and uhm... >shrug< we'll see what happens as I type away ...

Excitement on the DVD front: I got the First Season of Twin Peaks -- It doesn't have the series premiere though (the 2 hour pilot) I must find that on laserdisc or something ... Or hope they release it on DVD in the near future -- David Lynch is also releasing Fire Walk With Me sometime either this month or next month - (Elephant Man as well - though I'm not really waiting on that one - I could care less ... just give me my damned Twin Peaks Already!) No mention of 2nd season at all though ... I want that too ...

I also picked up a Copy of Dario Argento's Opera - MMMmm Must watch ... I should have a movie night sometime ...

Went to Death Guild in Oakland for New Years Eve - Ran into several listies BlackDesolation/Manual, his Cousin Aaron (Who coincidentally I used to work with a few years back...) and their friend, also in attendance was Spiggy/Benja (with girlfriend from the East Coast...- I dunno how they handle that -- I couldn't deal with long distance relationships - rough...) But then what do I know about relationships ... bah - Anyway - that's a different subject altogether ... and Halogothgirl/Jill, and Webkeeper/Terrence ... And crowds of other people I didn't know ...

I was in the mood to be out amongst people for a while - but then I just wanted to be comfortable at home ... I stayed until about 12:30 - besides I figured it'd be better to be on the road pretty eary - before all the drunk people decided they were okay to drive home ...

I didn't drink anythin' last night at the club -- (Because I was drivin' and it being new years eve...) I think I have more fun clubbin witha bit of alcohol in me ... loosens me up a bit or something ...

Found out today that a great band from my past is re-uniting and putting out some new music ... G.G.F.H. (They're also re-releasing their back catalog ... sooo cool - their stuff has always been hard to come by) I hope they play in the Bay Area soon ... It'd be a show to see!

I've made a few New Years resolutions - I've resolved to try 'n get out more this year - get to know more people "in the scene" -- It's tough though - being introverted ... I'm always shy around new people - and I don't think I've ever walked up to a stranger at a club to get to know 'em - It's always been through introductions - or their initiative ... I'm gonna try to change that ... I've also joined the SFGhoulies list hoping that it'll make this easier -- Since it's the "Friendly list" and all that... (Not to say the SouthBay Goth list isn't friendly - but the SFGoth list isn't very uhm... open it seems...)

So hopefully I'll be at more clubs and stuff this year ... I'll definately be at Deviations tomorrow night though -- Gonna bring my friend Tracy who's visiting from New York -- Also Diana mentioned she might want to tag along - so I may be bringing and entourage so to speak ...

I also resolve to get more productive as far as my music goes ... I've been very lax about it and I *MUST* change that -- I will get material together - I will either put a band together (Or work on my own whichever will work out) -- and who knows ... maybe I'll eventually look to play out again ... I miss the sirvix days - was always exciting to get on stage and just get in my own little world and twiddle the knobs - or play the guitar - or even sing the occasional "I'm talking to you ... " song ... even if the shows were mostly at the "practice" club ... it was still a good time ... And I'd like to do it again someday (But - hopefully at better venues this time around...)

This quiz was made for Diana! Oh - And Christmas ...

2001-12-27T05:06:11Z

Which David Lynch character are you most like?

Christmas has come and gone ... I spent the day with the family - first going to the parents place - I got some computer games, Monster Rancher Advanced for the Game Boy Advanced (wheee - I love the game - I spent all day at work playin' it!)

Then went grandma's in pleasanton - many cousins - much food ...

Then went to grandma's in Modesto ...

I drove my parents around - They wanted to hear Christmas Music on the radio ... I would not comply (They never change the station for me when they're driving) - They heard Lacrimosa, Wumpscut, Rasputina, and Moon Lays Hidden Beneath a Clud ...

While at Grandmas in modesto - the subject of being forced to listen to my music in my car came up - and my dad said it was funeral music ... odd that ...

I got lots and lots of Candy for Christmas ... 2 1 lb. boxes of Sees candy - some samplers and a big box of fruit chewy things ...

I don't eat candy much ...

I'm not going to Deviation tonight ... Feeling kinda down ... Think I'll read a book or watch a movie instead - just dont feel up to being out amongst people and loud music ...

(P.S.: Do you miss playing classic games - check out this site - lots of cool stuff! http://www.theunderdogs.org/ -- I'm downloading LOTS AND LOTS of stuff!)

whee fun - one more test...

2001-12-25T04:54:21Z

I am a Light Cycle.

I drive fast, I turn fast, I do everything fast. I even breakfast. I tend to confuse people with my sudden changes of heart. Sometimes I even confuse myself, which tends to cause problems. What Video Game Character Are You?

I like the results of this one :) - Christmas tomorrow - I got all my shopping done just in time...

No LoTR - Wasted Money - Christmas Shopping - New CDs - oh - and one new test

2001-12-24T04:28:51Z

Well - see - even when I don't get my hopes up - Shit happens!

Argh - So I was supposed to see Lord of The Rings today ... The person I was originally supposed to go with told me the morning would be best for her - SO I ordered tickets online for the first showing of the day (11:25 a.m.) - Bought them on Friday night - So saturday she tells me her Dinner Party is turned out to be closer to a lunch thing - starting at 1 ... SOOO she had to cancel on me - bah humbug - No biggie - At least I was told ahead of time ...

So I decide to give them away to a Sbay Listie - Post to the list then think to myself - wait maybe Diana would want to go ... So I call her and she says she will! oh happy day - I get to see LoTR still! Post that the tickets are gone on the list and do a happy dance.

I call Diana at around 10:30 am ... She's had a horrible night - dreaming of kittens being tortured and much much unpleasantness ... She says it's the stress -- Christmas Shopping not being done etc. -- She has to cancel - not feeling up to it - needs to get her Christmas Shopping done.

What a waste of a perfectly good happy dance.

So I decide I'm not going to go see it by myself - I try callin the parents see if they're gonna be around (Dad wants to see it too) -- They're busy today ... The tickets are wasted ... along with my money!

So - I go to the local mall - what a hellish place it was - crowds crowds crowds - I hate people ... I wander around - looking for the last of my gifts ... and find - absolutely NOTHING!

I did get myself some new CDs at Rasputins though ... I got Die Form "Archives & Documentes III" Not all that great - I was expecting better - I got Lacrimosa "Fassade" - I'd never heard 'em - but bought it on recommendation - It's good stuff - glad I got it ...Then I got The Moon Lay Hidden Beneath a Cloud I can't find an album title on it though ... and CDDB calls it untitled as well soooo... Very Atmospheric Ambience with droneish vocals and some Medieval instrumentation in places... I like it ... Not finished listening to it all yet though ... and Finally I got Wumpscut "Wreath of Barbs" -- I haven't listened to it at all yet -- But I really like the song they're playing in the clubs off of it ... sooo hopefully I'll like the rest of it as well...

I stopped by the grocery store and bought the rest of my gifts there - wine and candy ... Alcohol and Sugar - can't go wrong!

The weakest thing ever to follow -- I can't beleve the depths to which my life has sunk!

Take the Monopoly Piece Quiz!

House of Voodoo and more Tests again

2001-12-22T11:24:50Z

Went to House of Voodoo tonight - first time at Big Heart City for me ... I had a good time - good music was played - much dancing was done ... And I had a sort of first date - was spur of the moment - and she's cool people - We're going to see Lord of the Rings together on Sunday ... I like her - But with my past record with recent dates - I'm not getting my hopes up quite yet ...

I saw a couple of Sbay Goth listies at HoV as well... Webbie, Mr_Urc, and Manuel (I hope I'm spelling that right ...)

More Tests tonight ... I have one more a friend emailed me but I'll take that one later -- I'm a bit knackered right now ... Will sleep soon ...

You don't really care about anything or anyone, except for your Game Slave.

Take the Invader Zim quiz!

I am 51% evil.

I'm getting there. I haven't done all the damage I could do but I've done quite a bit. I'm just over the border into the Evil Zone.

Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com

More Tests ...

2001-12-20T07:44:34Z

Take the "What kind of Squirrel am I Test!"</div>

<td> The Eighties Pop Act Test deems me: </td>

<td> 30% Eighties Pop Act You are Olivia Newton John: You barely made it into the eighties. You skirted in on the tail end of disco, and never quite got it. Go watch Saturday Night Fever.

This is so wrong .... All I need are some Oingo Boingo and Flock of Seagulls questions!

This code is fucked up somewhere - why is it putting my damned mood and music above the date/message... bastards... I'm sleepy AND grumpy dammit ...

Deviation @ Kleidons (That may not be the right spelling...)

2001-12-20T07:29:44Z

Just got back from Deviation's at their new venue ... and I must say I am pleasantly surprised! I like the space quite a bit ... 2 seperate rooms - different music playing in each ... the dance space is a bit small - but I guess you can't have everything ... The sound was pretty good as well!

Drinks were a little bit cheaper then Lido's ... and they spun really good music ... I guess I'll still have to be a regular there ... good stuff!

More Tests Again...

2001-12-17T02:08:01Z

If I were a

I would be:

SADIE

take the Living Dead Dolls Test

okay this is just WRONG! I don't wanna be this!

Take the Corporate Mascot Test at Willaston's Lounge!

Is it really true?!
You Have A Nice Ass

You must be doing something right. You have a nice ass and aren?t afraid to show it off. Keep up the good work!
Take Assman's Ass Test at Fire For Ice!
Quiz by fire4ice and Assman

Karaoke Parties - Laserdisc Finds

2001-12-17T01:41:46Z

I had a holiday party for the SouthBaySFGoth List last night -- Much fun was had ...

Before the party I went to Laser Tower in Milpitas to rent a couple of Karaoke Discs - they didn't have much of a selection - unless I wanted Phillipino or Vietnamese songs - but I got a couple with mostly 80s tracks... I also scored myself a copy of Pier Pasolini's Salo for a mere $9.99 ... I could turn around and make a tidy profit by selling it on Ebay if I don't like it enough to keep it ...

The party started with a couple games of Poy Poy - I kicked much ass! Then we watched part of Jan Svankmajer's "Alice" while eating the pot luck dishes - which turned out REALLY well aparently ... I didn't eat much myself... I wasn't really hungry for some reason ...

But that didn't prevent me from indulging in a bit of alcohol... I was pleasantly buzzed throughout much of the night - not so much that I didn't feel I wasout of control... but enough to be a happy camper ... I found that Redrum (a Fruit infused rum that I found at Albertsons that came in a red coffin shaped bottle) and Pepsi may be one of the finest drinks ever :) ... I had a Midori Sour to start the night with but after that it was all about Redrum and Pepsi! (I did have a beer as well - but only drank half of it before dumping it down the drain ... I hate beer...

Some of the people broke off to play Cranium... I joined midway in the game when Elan had to take off - so Piers and I formed Team Drunken Bastards -- or something like that ... We ended up in a weak last place! Alcohol and Cranium do not mix ...

Karaoke on the other hand makes for great drunken festivities... I must say that I can't keep a tune at all like that -- I probably should have picked songs that I was more familiar with ... ahh well...

I should have another gathering for Poy Poy again soon ... people seemed to enjoy it ... no more DDR though ... I guess the tile doesn't absorb the sound of stompin as much as I'd like...

I got a CD from Terrence from the CD exchange - looks like he spent a lot of work on the cover -- very cool work - I haven't heard all of the CD yet but I've liked it so far... very Synthpoppy stuff ...

All in all I think it was a succesful party - with very little to complain about ...

Hmmm - Personality Testing...

2001-12-12T06:33:37Z

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	High
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Click Here To Take The Test --

Again with the tests...

2001-12-11T02:31:08Z

Bah - I was so bored at work today I fell asleep... My boss asked if I had a nice nap ... He wasn't mad at all ... bizarre ...

Are you a Bitter Hermit?

I AM 70% BITTER HERMIT.

I am a marvel of science. None has ever been discovered like me before, and for that, The Bitter Hermits are grateful. They will be taking membership requests later in the year. Cost is $1,000,000 per year membership and 3 years indentured slavery to each current member. I think it's more than worth it!

Chance I would leave my home voluntarily: ?
Chance I would leave my computer voluntarily: ?

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Bah - I was so bored at work today I fell asleep... My boss asked if I had a nice nap ... He wasn't mad at all ... bizarre ...

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This is so not cool - I hate the cure

Last Night - at the Cactus Club of all places ...

2001-12-08T18:13:20Z

Went out last night - had a yummy ethiopian dinner - then headed for the "Practice Club" for the Pigface show... I got there at around 9:15 and Sunshine Blind was already playing... I only got to see them perform about 3 songs ... I enjoyed it - and wished they'd started later so I could've seen their full set.

I skipped out for most of Godhead and Gravity Kills - They're really not to my taste.

Pigface was a good show - tighter as a group then I'd ever seen them before (Granted - it has been MANY years since I've seen 'em) and with their roster constantly rotating - I was impressed. I was surprised to see Chris Connelly perform some of his Solo stuff in the very beginning - (I only recognized the first song though - July) and many classic pigface songs were performed - flowers - weightless - and believe it or not Suck ... I even heard a Murder Inc. song and a 1000 Homo DJs/Black Sabbath Song (Supernaut)

A few songs near the end of the set a drum troupe and firedancers came out into the club and danced and drummed along with pigface...

After the show I managed to meet Charles Levi of Thrill Kill Kult, Martin Atkins of well -- lots of stuff, and Jared Louche of Chemlab ...

It was a good show - I had fun - but I dunno if I'll go see them in SF again tonight ... should prolly save money - or spend it on alcohol or stuff for my party next weekend :)

heh - A cat quiz ... I love my kitties...

2001-12-06T02:29:08Z

Take the What Cat Are You? test by webkin!

Goth Party in the works -- More Tests ...

2001-12-04T02:18:09Z

Well been in the middle of planning a SouthBay goth party lately - Gonna be held at my place... I hope it turns out okay - (The party - and my place!)

If I was a work of art, I would be Leonardo da Vinci's Mona Lisa.

I am extremely popular and widely known. Although unassuming and unpretentious, my enigmatic smile has charmed millions. I am a mystery, able to be appreciated from afar, but ultimately unknowable and thus intriguing.

Which work of art would you be? The Art Test

Serial Killer Test

Your Score 11.

SCORES 11 - 15
We're not going to label you borderline, but the Death Row staff would sleep better at night knowing the word "psychotherapy" is part of your vocabulary.

I am 45% British, just like
Catherine Zeta Jones
A true English rose, but you know where the money is.

Take the Brit Quiz at
www.darrenlondon.tripod.com/britquiz1.htm</center>
Quiz written by Daz daz71